I'm afraid

You asked,

what is the scariest part?

I answer,

the scariest part 

is not the feeling of loneliness 

or the darkness that fills you

despite the looming pain

of emptiness 

The scariest part

is the realization 

that you have lost yourself 

completely 

sinking in as you lay awake

at 2 a.m.

because you lost the ability to sleep

and you can't even cry

because you don't even care